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See what I seeYou asked me why I do it, and you never thought it could of been because of you? Just look in the mirror and see what I see, those eye's I can't have, your soft hair i can't pat and those lips I can't touch...
Now do you understand why I do it?
Don't understand the painAm I really here anymore? I can feel the pain making my heart beat, I'm tired of so much hate! I wish I could feel normal, but I'm not sure of that word. 'Normal' is it the same as 'Ok' only a word and no-one knows the means of? 'Ok' I'm not fine but I'm not down... I feel Ok all the time and thats what I say. 'Normal' someone is '' '', but than I guess I'm not normal. The others only laugh at me when they see the scares they don't understand the pain. I want to be like them and not have a care in the world but it's not letting me have a 'normal' life... I wish I could just forget about my problems but there always in the back of my mind eating my brain away. I'm alone in my heart and my emotions are killing me other and other again. I only know one way to get my feeling out. You can't understand my pain! Really let me be! I'm not you, You couldn't take it anyway.
different but too alikeOur love is fading, our hate growing.
I want to give up, but I love you to much.
I stare at the over side of the bed, where you used to sleep.
I want you to cuddle up with me, like you did.
I have to remember that just because I need you, it doesn't mean I can have you.
When I wake up in the morning, I make breakfast for two.
I remember that you left on a cold day, the sun was hiden by the clouds and that's how I felt.
Our love is hiden by hate.
I need to know that your well, I need a call.
You needed space, I needed hugs.
I know your number off-by heart, I dialed it to many times.
You was right there last time I looked.
You would write me notes, telling me you loved me.
I still have them, I wish you could write more.
You would follow me, into the sunlight of the day.
I needed your smile, you need...
What did you need?
left with a tearYou want to watch out babes, see I'm not so sweet when I'm mad with someone, and you might just be that person. Try me! You want to fight? Then go ahead, you can always go first you know that right? Follow my lead babes, I can do it when I need to. I want to leave you crying not winning. I watch with an evil smile on my face as you run for the bus. I sit in my car with the rain falling from above, I hope that you might get a cold if your lucky. Its your fault that I hate you so much, you left me on a cold winter night, saying you didn't feel 'it' anymore. You didn't care about how I felt you just said goodbye and kissed my cheek and left with a tear...
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